M3PHI / Mephi
Socials:
Age:
30
Zodiac:
Sagittarius
Location:
Midwestern Canada
Gender:
Vampire
Pronouns:
they, them
Status:
Married, in relationships, part-time parental figure
Flagging:
Still wearing a respirator mask in 2025
Resting?:
bitch face
Likes:
# Music
# Movies
# Video Games
# Walks
# Writing; and not just "I like to tell stories," the physical act of writing
# Singing
# Ephemera and Physical Media
# Books
# People who are covid-competent and haven't stopped masking or testing
# Oddities, Occult, -osophies and -ologies
Dislikes:
* Bad drivers
* Car trouble (I have never owned a new car, babes)
* Bigots
* The media illiterate, "whatabouts"
* Billionaires
* Anyone who drives a truck that they need a step-ladder to get into
About
Hi, all. If you don't know me as some variation of "Mephi," then you probably know me as 1000punks. Those are the only two identities I've used online in like, fifteen years. Welcome to my corner of the internet.
I live in Canada, and I do not want to be mistaken for an American. People (weirdly) tend to do this online. I know the culture is somewhat similar, but it's not the same, dude. Anyway, Canada is beautiful and aside from the societal issues, it's a very nice place to be. I love evergreen trees, and the mountains, and the prairies. One thing that always makes me think of "home" is hearing the wind blow through the tall grass. Wind, in general.
I'm a classically trained artist, I graduated with honours from my university with a major in Arts and a minor in English Literature. Does it help me get a job in my field? No, but that's a story for another day. The point is, I love art. I love learning. And I picked up a lot of useful information along the way. My high school was only built to house 600 students at best, and it was underfunded in the arts, so a lot of my worldliness manifest while I was a university student. I hope to never stop learning, though. Learning is living, and living is learning. I do eventually want to go back to school for both my Master's and a PhD.
I am very interested (academically) in magic and the occult. I've done almost as much studying in said sphere as I did learning about societal mores in my undergrad Sociology courses. I am spiritual or "magically inclined," as well, and I identify my spiritual beliefs as "Secular Satanist." At all times, I am three seconds away from starting a rural Satanist church with my brother in law, just so we can 1. reap the tax benefits, and 2. we can help people who are unfairly targeted by the Christian Right (it's pretty bad where I am, everyone and their dog is a hardcore Lutheran).
I am in art burnout. I write, and I paint, and I draw, but it's getting harder to find the willpower to keep it up as time goes on. It also saddens me greatly that art is now dependent on social media algorithms. It makes me feel like I graduated too late. For now, I make OC art that I can obsess over privately or with close friends, I write (original- and fan-fiction), and I REGULARLY text-roleplay with friends if we're not already playing Dungeons and Dragons. I have so many things to say about my original characters, forever and ever, amen. Please ask me.
I am also undxed autistic. We're pretty confident, and by we, I mean myself and my circle of friends who are all quite autistic. I'm peer-reviewed. I've taken all of the assessments that I can get my hands on, and I've printed them out and put them in a binder. We're pretty confident. It's been an interesting journey over the past five or so years, with living in an affirming environment as opposed to a regressive one. I've learned a lot about myself and my needs. The next step is to heal from a childhood where that wasn't the case.
Lastly (not leastly), I am transgender. My transition has been weird (I can say that about my own transition, so ha). I had the triple whammy sexuality-gender-autism crisis at very different stages in my life. I grew up as a rural queer, at a time where there were next to no transition resources in my province. There used to only be two psychologists in the entire joint that could diagnose Gender Dysphoria (back in my day it was still Gender Identity Disorder), then one retired. Getting on HRT was a nightmare, and I didn't until I was 21 (I came out at 17, and a random doorman at a hotel in San Francisco knew before I did). Nobody was there to teach me how to administer an intramuscular needle. I was on HRT for two years when I came out as non-binary, and nobody respected me or used my pronouns (non-binary people didn't exist back then, obvi). The soundtrack of my early transition is Kygo, the Chainsmokers, and Skrillex's Recess, though I am old enough to remember him as Sonny Moore of From First to Last fame. My genre of masculinity was always lazy, crusty skater boys, the smell of cannabis, and a good, long drink of cheap beer. Or, alternately, men who looked like emaciated rats and tended to have long hair and seductive canines. My genre of femininity was always women who looked and acted like "the boys". Girls who played the drums and smoked cigarettes. I had to stop binding because it was straining my ribs, and I got off HRT in 2023 when I got (enthusiastically) sterilized. Now I'm comfortable with where and what I am, even though my gender is hard to label.
Interests:
# Blogging or keeping a journal or some sort of record
I feel like a lot of memories of my childhood are lost, due to various reasons, so as an adult I keep a strong record of what I'm doing, what I've done, and how I feel. I bullet-journal. I have a journal for feelings, junk, song lyrics, etc. I have a spirituality journal that's mostly for Jungian shadow work and philosophy. I journal about tarot readings and odd coincidences. I physically write out story ideas and fiction chapters. All this to say: I am simply buried in paper.
# Solo RPGs
I was a frequently lonely and hyperindependent kid. Getting lost in a roleplaying game was (and still is) one of my favourite forms of escapism. If you're an OG, you can probably guess what my favourite video game series is (use the inspect tool).
# Reading
I used to read a lot of fiction in my youth, but after university, I tend towards non-fiction and the memoir and biography genres.
# Writing
I did write a lot as a kid, but I think I only really gained consciousness of plot and form quite recently. I very infrequently write poetry.
# Movies
I gravitate towards intense dramas, documentaries, artsy-horror, slasher films, and religious undertones in movies. Movies make me feel calm.
# Roleplaying and Dungeons and Dragons
At this point in my life, I am very grateful and lucky to be a part of a solid D.D. group that is all queer people and loved ones. I didn't get into text-roleplay until I was 25, but that doesn't mean you should let your dreams be dreams. Make a funky little dude, and make it kiss your friends' funky little dudes. It will heal you in the same way that aloe water is a drink and a snack. I promise. You might even figure out a few things about yourself along the way.
# Art
I love art. I do art. I love seeing people make art and show their art. If I was a bajillionaire I would patronize every artist I see online. However I am an artist and I am also firmly dangling from the poverty line, so I must reskeet(?) and reblog every fanart I see. I must also make my own. It is my curse.
# Music
This is a pretty standard answer for a lot of people, I guess. I'm not musical in a way that has any real significance, but I am an enjoyer of music. Deep bass that you can feel in your chest. Cello solos that make the hair on your arms stand up. Ripping vocal runs that make a shiver go up your back. I listen to a lot of varied stuff. I need it for different moods. If I named all of my favourite artists (or even genres), we'd be here all fucking day. See the Lists tab. LOL
My Collection of Funky Little Badges:
# credit to fluffmoth
